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Before you Die by lstnme, literature

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Before you Die

Remember the old days we used to do such crazy things Remember how we used to laugh we were best friends way back then Remember this isn't the way we were gonna let it end Superficial empty ties lookin through your dyin eyes Wonder if it's too late you can't keep livin this lie Why are you so filled with hate C'mon and give me a try It wasn't supposed to be like this Look at all the stuff you've missed Waistin your body away Livin just for your today How selfish do you think you are Don't you know it really isn't all that hard Just keep holdin on for one more day Wishin I could take your pain away Just put it al

Dear God by lstnme, literature

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Dear God

I tried to pretend I was glad I walked away I have to testify, here I am to stay Both knees are on the floor Broken and trembling I couldn't need you more After everything I love you still I realize now that it always has to be your will This planet gets smaller everyday It scares me to think of the ones who stray When my world was falling apart Deep down you were always in my heart Thank you for the bad that leads me to the good You knocked me off my feet right where I stood Then you gave me something I didn't expect Now I spend every day just feeling so blessed Forgive me for what I tried to become Lost who I was a

My Yesterday by lstnme, literature

How by lstnme, literature

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How

Well you didn't do a thing Now I can't even hear you sing So now I sit and ask why you do me like that How can you walk away Not even trying to stay Well I was so sure you would listen What is it that I was missin How can you just turn your back Why are you gonna do me like that Thought I was your girl and your life But I can't take it cause I know it's not right Played all the games you wanted to play Put me through all of that and you won't even stay To hell with you and the way you used to look at me I have to move out and live my life seperately I can tell by the way you do things for me You are lieing and you know how mu

You and Me by lstnme, literature

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You and Me

You turned out to be more than I ever could hope for I want to give you everything and then some more And it's you, the one who moves me everything changes when you reach for me I could spend all my time in your kiss Tracing your lips with my finger tips Saved me from all of my misery You'll never know what a treasure you are to me Here I am always yours forever more you've touched my heart staight to the core I will never forget the day you proposed to me Complete faith and trust this is how it is supposed to be Only one who ever really took the time to see Just who I am and the person I want to be I remember the way you kisse

Tellin It Like It Is by lstnme, literature

Too Late by lstnme, literature

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Too Late

No more room for you to tell me what to do Make your idol threats some more why don't you Yeah I got the message and just had to laugh Not following through with anything seems to be your craft Your not in a position to tell me how it goes I don't care. You made sure of that you know. There isn't anything you can do to hurt me now To me you are just another person in the crowd Listen, all the material things you can try and take I will get it all back on my own make no mistake I am not sorry and I am no longer scared you see Because I know no matter what I always land on my feet I don't need you so just get out of my way Tried to

Confusion by lstnme, literature

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Confusion

Just want him home to stay But then again I wish he'd go away I hate him and I love him so Don't know which way to go What is it that I am feeling All of it has me reeling I cry every day not knowing What do the tears mean that keep flowing I am so confused I don't know what to do Why can't I stop thinking of you I wish he wouldn't call or write I just can't seem to give up this fight. Can't seem to stay and can't seem to go away I hate myself and I love me so Still I don't know which way to go What is it that you are feeling Does all of this have you reeling Do you cry every day not knowing What your tears mean that keep

The Soul by lstnme, literature

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The Soul

A soul does not speak to tell the lies A soul can not betray what's inside It can't look real pretty for others to see It can't own precious things to give to me The things people put out there They don't realize will get them nowhere A soul is only what it is so think of all the things you miss When you judge someone based on what a soul can not do Stop looking and listening to the external view

The Blame Game by lstnme, literature

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The Blame Game

Stuck in one place unable to move Have to get rid of the anger stuck in a groove Why is it so hard to not be mad I should get rid of it but it's just too bad Carrying it around with me everyday I don't know what to tell them I don't know what to say Abused, cheated and taken for granted Up on my feet it seems I never landed How dare they do these things to me From all of it I long to be free Mad at myself because I hold myself back All of these feelings I pile in a stack Always blaming others for the hurt But I tried to hide behind my skirt So I need to accept some blame Accept myself and know my name Own it and set it free

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seeing him again by lstnme, literature

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seeing him again

I got the call it came from the past I'm an actress part of a cast. Down deeper I go into myself all the reasons in itself Why should I be why do I bleed My feelings ooze so fast with the memories of my past. I can no longer run I can no longer hide I always feel like I am on his ride Around and Around I go where he stops no one knows. He's changing she says but I don't understand my mind is red Christmas the time of joy that must be why I'm his toy He'll steal and cheat and rob you blind but that's ok cause I d

Away by lstnme, literature

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Away

I am alone and all bewildered but he doesn't even know that he's a killer He killed my soul and my spirit and so I write all these lyrics. One by one it goes away Oh how I wished he'd stayed I know he didn't mean with all the lies too bad he can't hear all my cries All alone I do the work and all he does is give me smirks I wish he would call but all his time goes to balls Billiards for money he has to play and so I wait another day Excuses and anger is what I recieve but I don't think he can believe His expectations are too high so I sit and want to die Priorities of his are so screwy but he still is my little cutie So I'll preten

His Part by lstnme, literature

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His Part

working together for a new start and I wish he'd do his part Therapy and communication.... but his excuse is a nation He knows he needs to call..he needs to write but still he stalls, still he fights. Procrastination is his name and it's all part of his game His nonexistance brings me down but still he sits with his crown Better than me he thinks he is so on my anger I put a lid Time for him is what he needs from all the things he has to be We understand his need to be free too bad I can't be what he needs me to be I yell and scream and accuse some more and I know that's why he hits the stores Spending money we don't have taking ever

Wanting Him To Know by lstnme, literature

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Wanting Him To Know

He is everything anything I can't be without and I want to show him what it's all about Give him everything anything just for him to see He is my everything anything I can't believe Just how much he loves me He is all the things more than the things I need him to be Without him I wouldn't survive in my sea He's all I ever wanted needed craved in me and I just can't believe just how much he loves me Please god don't take his love from me because without him I am nothing less than anything in a crowd Oh why oh why did I scream so loud I must have been out of my mind in the clouds I would give

His eyes by lstnme, literature

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His eyes

his eyes are the color of my love blue and green looking to rise above Erotic and magnetic to the core when he touches me I tremble forever wanting more I have no choice but to be true No one compares quite like you It is eternity not being in his embrace Everyday I miss and think of his face All the things he's done for me and all the help so we can be No one but him could sever our bond so I hope he reads this song

This Time by lstnme, literature

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This Time

I should have given it all But I had to fall Down the drain tried to throw it all away Oh what I wouldn't give for one more day Just so I could say I did it all Didn't hit the wall I was on my way Oh for just one more day spend some time....go all the way I was down the hall from all your calls Didn't wait to hear you say I just want you to stay by me Oh what I wouldn't give for one more day Just so I could say I was there for you I was the one who knew And I had a clue But instead I hit the wall and didn't do it all I was on my way To pushing you away Oh Hopefully I'll get my day So I can show just how

The Seed by lstnme, literature

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The Seed

Still I plant it and put it in the ground I'll even put some water on the mound But in the darkness it will stay With no light to find it's way It can not shoot up and it can not grow Because all the truths it doesn't know Nothing will live always in the dark Craving the light up under the tarp It will begin to rot and wither and even mold Fading away never the same in the cold

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My prayer by undergroundwalruss, literature

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My prayer

our Father, who art in heaven, help me through today and show me a tomorrow where love holds the power that hate does now and when that tomorrow never comes help me through the hell that takes its place and then the next day and the next until this world is gone and the universe is empty of everything but hope which will pull us through tomorrow and all of tomorrow's tomorrows forever amen

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You and Me by lstnme, literature

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You and Me

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 19 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Idaho
Favourite genre of music: Everything
Personal Quote: Do something...Anything

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Anything funny

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Live

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Anyone who tries

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Writing, playing pool, animals, partying and my family

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lstnme

Apr 4, 2006

HeY I aM BaCk!!

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Well I just wrote the first poem that I have written in a LOOOOONG time. It might take me a while to get back into the swing of things. I will probably be writing poetry on some touchy subjects since my love life is doing so well and I have never been good at writing happy poetry. So I have to find past struggles and other people's struggles to inspire me. Hope everyone is doing well. My hubby is gone right now for two months. The darn military sent him across the country from me so I am a bit sad. But he calls twice a day and I have a myspace page dedicated to him with updated pics of kids and such back here at home. You are welcome to chec

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lstnme

Feb 27, 2006

Update

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Well if you read my last journal entry you know that I was hoping my son's Den won the centerpiece contest. THEY DID!! He got free tickets to the movies. The banguet was alot of fun.  I can't believe how good my 1yr old was through that whole dinner and ceremony! She is just an angel.   Other than that nothing new here.

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lstnme

Feb 24, 2006

I SUCK!!

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Ok Ok I am sorry. I am just so busy with everything. SOON I promise I won't be. lol. I had a birthday so now I am the big 29! It was great! Darrell bought me a new wedding ring set that is to die for! I got to pick it out and was told that money was no object so I got the one I would have picked without looking at prices. Never thought I would be able to do that! I also got taken out to dinner my choice and a back rub and well he also bought me my own vehicle which I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE!!  Of course I was pretty spendy for his birthday. I bought him a PSP and a bunch of games and car hook up stuff. My kids are doing excellent. We are ac